I couple months ago, after the prompting and encouragement of some of my students I quit cracking my finger knuckles. I continued to crack my wrist, hip, ankles and toes (cracking my back was even kept to a minimum) but what I thought was the worst (my fingers), I managed to quit.
Cracking my finger knuckles is a nervous habit. I can feel the urge coming, but it's almost impossible to suppress it. Sometimes it's like an out of body experience. I really don't want to crack them, but my body doesn't listen to my mind, and I can't help myself. I was an addict. I felt a sense of release after cracking them. I guess I can relate to others who have some sort of addiction.
Recently, I noticed that I've started to crack my knuckles again. I'm not exactly sure why, but I vaguely remember the air pressure changing a lot around that time, and my hands feeling stiff, so I wanted to crack my knuckles. Maybe I've been more stressed out recently, what with all the changes that are going on in my life right now.
I hope that I have the self control and the motivation to quit again (and forever).
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