Sunday, September 13, 2026

American Doctor

TIFF 2026 is fully underway, but I stepped away from the action to watch a documentary at the Hot Docs Cinema. American Doctor (trailer) was on my radar for a bit, but it just worked out that the screening this weekend was the only one that I was able to attend. Here is the description from the Hot Docs Cinema website:

Three US doctors on the ground in Gaza risk everything to save lives and expose the horrors they encounter. Despite their differing backgrounds—Palestinian, Jewish and Zoroastrian—the physicians are steadfast in providing emergency medical care amid a growing humanitarian crisis while at the same time demanding action and accountability from their government. Director Poh Si Teng doesn’t censor what she witnesses in Gaza lest she engage in what one of the doctors calls “journalistic malpractice.” Filmed in several hospitals under siege, the documentary captures the unfolding chaos of emergency medicine in a devastated healthcare system, where physicians must make unfathomable triage decisions while confronting danger themselves. Moving between frontline medical care and the corridors of government power, American Doctor explores the moral responsibilities of healthcare workers in times of conflict and the fragile intersection of medicine, politics and humanitarian action. 

Vivian Belik 

wikipedia, iMDb 

TIFF 2026

The first weekend of the Toronto International Film Festival 2026 is finishing up. I have seen four films and have two more to go. Here are the six that I got tickets to (description courtesy of of the film's TIFF page):

1. The Smell of Apples (dir. John Trengove)

In 1974, in an insulated and sunny white apartheid South Africa, 11-year-old Marnus (Dawian van der Westhuizen) lives his best life. His amazing father (Hilton Pelser) plays a lot with him, his beautiful mother (Maude Sandham) is a devoted spouse, his friend Frikkie (Wian Carstens) is almost a brother and his nanny Doreen (Celeste Matthews Wannenburgh) discreetly takes care of everyone.

But when Mr. Smith (Alejandro Goic), a secretive Chilean colleague of his father, turns up at their home, the peaceful harmony of Marnus’s idyllic life is suddenly shattered. In just five days, his wonderful world begins to crumble. Realizing that the beauty around him is actually tinged with cruelty and oppression, Marnus comes to see that everything he once believed was nothing more than a mirage.

Adapted from South African writer Mark Behr’s 1993 bestselling novel, The Smell of Apples offers an intimate and radical insight into the apartheid regime from the perspective of those who benefited from it — whether they were aware of it or not. Behind every privilege and advantage lies a sordid truth that everyone prefers to ignore. By facing that reality head-on, director John Trengove offers us not only a brilliant exploration of human baseness, but also a stark reminder that responsibility is shared with those who pretend it does not exist.

CLAIRE DIAO

TIFF, cercamon, wikipedia, BALDR

2.  Lemonade (dir. Kim Bartley)

After years in Ireland’s foster care system, Danny is required by law to leave the home that has been his world. On the day he turns 18, he finds himself alone in a tiny Dublin studio apartment, working an entry-level factory job, and navigating the bewildering freedoms and responsibilities of adulthood. As he struggles to find his footing — and a way back to the younger brother he was forced to leave behind — the reappearance of his former social worker Josh (Barry Keoghan, TIFF ’24’s Bring Them Down and Bird) offers both an unexpected lifeline and a painful reminder that trust, once broken, is never easily rebuilt.

Drawing on a distinguished documentary career, including time spent alongside young people living on society’s margins, writer-director Kim Bartley brings humanity and compassion to her first narrative feature. Yet Lemonade never settles for the conventions of grim social realism.

Instead, Bartley observes Danny tenderly, discovering warmth, humour, romance, and gentle beauty in everyday moments while refusing to define him by the circumstances that have shaped his life. Lewis Brophy is a revelation as Danny, carrying the film with extraordinary authenticity, honesty, and emotional intelligence as he adroitly traverses the fragile threshold between adolescence and adult life. Co-star and executive producer Keoghan is a grounding force as the social worker who knows all too well the challenges Danny faces.

Lemonade is ultimately less about the failures of a system than the resilience and dignity of a young man determined to build a life on his own terms.

JASON RYLE

TIFF, wikipedia, iMDb 

3. The Final Act (dir. Sophie Deraspe)

With growing access to medically assisted dying in jurisdictions worldwide, many of us are facing the kind of moral and ethical questions we may prefer to avoid lest they challenge us too deeply. And however we may answer those questions, there’s no denying the choices that we or our loved ones make about how to depart the world of the living carry profound weight. 

In her extraordinary new documentary, filmmaker Sophie Deraspe approaches the subject with grace and sensitivity. Part of what makes The Final Act so remarkable is the balance that the director — whose films Antigone (TIFF ’19) and Shepherds (TIFF ’24) both won the Festival’s Best Canadian Feature prize — strikes between the film’s two carefully integrated components. 

The first is a philosophical enquiry into humankind’s attitudes toward death and dying, with invaluable contributions by big thinkers like American social psychologist Sheldon Solomon. In the second, Deraspe’s film brings viewers into the lives and final moments of a variety of subjects who have decided to undertake medically assisted death. 

Achieving an uncommon degree of intimacy while maintaining all the respect and reverence such moments deserve, Deraspe creates a space for contemplation. Yet for all the weight that The Final Act itself possesses, the film is suffused with great warmth, beauty, love, and lightness, too. 

JASON ANDERSON

TIFF, wikipedia, iMDb

4. Tangles (dir. Leah Nelson)

Sarah Leavitt’s graphic memoir Tangles: A Story about Alzheimer’s, My Mother and Me comes to life in hand-drawn 2D animation, in director Leah Nelson’s deeply moving feature debut. 

Set in San Francisco in the ’90s, Tangles follows the story of Sarah, a young woman whose life is just beginning to tip into the stuff her dreams are made of — new opportunities to illustrate, a new romance with a bad-ass motorcycle-riding girlfriend named Donimo — when the pull of responsibility calls for her. Sarah’s lively mother Midge is battling Alzheimer’s disease, and the rest of the family is struggling to come to terms with the diagnosis. 

The animation is perfectly paired with an incredible cast. Sarah is voiced by Broad City’s Abbi Jacobson, Julia Louis-Dreyfus (Enough Said, TIFF ’13) is unforgettable as Midge, Bryan Cranston (The Upside, TIFF ’17) voices Midge’s husband Rob, Beanie Feldstein plays Sarah’s sister Hannah, and Samira Wiley is Donimo.  

Levity — the film’s top-notch supporting voice cast also includes comedians Seth Rogen, Bowen Yang, Sarah Silverman, Wanda Sykes, and Pamela Adlon — balances the heavy material, as Sarah tries to make sense of what’s happening with her mom’s failing mental acuity and the sudden, daunting role reversal of caring for a parent. 

Tangles deals with memories, family, and, most importantly, love, rendered in black and white animation, with bursts of colour. A film about memories, this one will stay with you.

KELLY BOUTSALIS

TIFF, wikipedia, iMDb

5. Re/Pair (dir. Lacey Schwartz Delgado)

“I don’t think it’s hyperbolic to say that now we’re in a crisis around Black and Jewish community,” says Black Lives Matter co-founder Patrisse Cullors who sits in discussion with her former camp counselor, Rabbi Susan Goldberg. This is just one of many riveting talks that are staged in Re/Pair between members of American Black and Jewish communities.

Filmmaker Lacey Schwartz Delgado has a stake in both identities, a personal history she explored in her documentary Little White Lie. Here, she creates a lively format to foster communication, by pairing up prominent Black and Jewish personalities from across different disciplines in conversation with one another. They include writers W. Kamau Bell and Adam Mansbach; commentators Van Jones and Batya Ungar-Sargon; actors Harry Lennix and David Schwimmer — to name a few of the 19 different pairings. Their conversations are interwoven into a wide-ranging discourse characterized by respect, candor, and humour.

The flow of topics brings up historical moments both good and bad. The civil rights alliance between Martin Luther King Jr. and Rabbi Abraham Heschel reminds us of the common causes these communities once found. Now how do we process divisive moments that trigger deep hurt, including the polarizing debates around Israel and Palestine? Today, as hateful demagogues push ideas like “replacement theory,” we can see how racism and antisemitism are continually twinned together. Re/Pair doesn’t offer simple solutions. But it does demonstrate the need for us to move away from our social media feedback loops and hold our own dialogues where listening is as important as speaking.

THOM POWERS

TIFF, iMDb

6. Rehearsals for a Revolution (dir. Pegah Ahangarani)

Celebrated Iranian actor Pegah Ahangarani’s breakout performance came at a young age in The Girl in the Sneakers (1999). Her career flourished over the years, appearing in approximately 40 films before pivoting to stepping behind the camera. Ahangarani’s debut feature is grounded in the Iranian concept of yād — mining memory — through an essayistic form, weaving together home movies, family photographs, and news broadcasts to construct a vivid portrait of Iran’s modern history in the four decades since the revolution.

Balancing the personal with the political, the film unfolds in five chapters, each devoted to a figure who shaped Ahangarani’s life: her revolutionary filmmaker father, Jamshid Ahangarani; her beloved teacher, Shermin Sarra; her uncle, Rashid; her close friend, Amir; with the final section dedicated to her young daughter, Lily. Each chapter confronts seismic turning points in Iranian history — moments when hope and the promise of change were palpable — from the 1997 election of Mohammad Khatami and the 2009 protests to the persistent oppression of the current regime and the ongoing destruction from U.S. and Israeli missiles.

Now living in exile, Ahangarani grapples with her role in the ongoing struggle — one that is resolute and unwavering. She clings fiercely to hope and to the “people who didn’t give up, who rehearsed for the revolution,” remaining steadfast in the fight for justice and freedom.

The winner of Cannes’ L'Œil d'Or documentary prize, Rehearsals for a Revolution skillfully fuses the political with the personal, resonating powerfully with current events.

THOM POWERS

TIFFwikipedia, iMDb, Sony Pictures

Wednesday, August 12, 2026

Helsinki (July 26-Aug 2, 2026)

I'm at the point where it's been about 20 years since I've been to wherever I'm travelling. It's a weird combination of something feeling so recent yet being a lifetime ago. 

There have been a couple trips recently where nothing felt familiar. I was desperately hoping for a glimmer of recognition, but it often didn't come. And something about that felt really sad.

I had a couple moments of recognition on this trip (particularly, when I saw the Esplanadi and thought the facing shops - although many of them have moved locations - and the Marimekko fashion show that I stumbled upon). It literally was just over 20 years ago that I was there.

Anyway, some things that stuck out to me this time:

  • If you are with a baby and stroller, it is free for you to ride the rail service
  • They don't (need to) chain up tables/chairs on outdoor patios overnight
  • Everyone seems to have a Marimekko tote bag
  • Lots of lactose-free products because the Finnish don't understand why you need to suffer through bloating 
  • So many second-hand clothing stores...and I don't mean the 'vintage' kind. 
  • Very sustainability-conscious (e.g., see point above)

Tuesday, March 31, 2026

Random ramblings

I'm plugging away, I think making some good progress on living, in terms of being and knowing me. Moments where I'm feeling proud of where I'm at, noticing some differences, also still recognizing and being aware of other niggly things. Basically, being human. I think even my ability to acknowledge that is a good thing.

I'm trying to tune in to things that give me joy. To notice it and give it attention and worth. To try to actively to things that give me joy. I was recently reminded that going to grocery stores give me joy. This particular (fancy-ish or artisanal) store reminded me that I like to look at fancy jams and jellies. Fancy oils and vinegars. That nice packaging and labels have an impact on me. And that when I travel, I will continue to visit grocery stores and perhaps picking up something to add to my pantry (of course, within carry-on luggage allowances!) might be something to do.

My dad recently started (radiation) treatment for cancer. (Everything seems to be going ok.) Today, the patient after my dad was wearing an orange jumpsuit, had restraints on their wrists and ankles, and accompanied by two individuals that I would assume are workers in Correctional Services. The individual was chatting with the medical practitioner as they were walking by. I had so many thoughts running through my head. Today already felt like a day where my emotions were feeling quite large, so maybe that had something to do with it, but that particular moment made my mind race and my emotions rise. I have no judgment about it (definitely with respect to the situation, and with respect to my reaction, I'm just letting myself be 'human' and reflecting on it). For some reason, I just felt documenting it in some way.

Sunday, January 18, 2026

TSO concert and musings

I haven't been to the Toronto Symphony Orchestra (TSO) in probably over a decade. Do they now play the national anthem at the beginning of every performance? I wasn't expecting it and I couldn't find anything written about it on their website or in the programme so it threw me for a loop when the conductor came out and then immediately cued up the orchestra to stand and start playing. And then the audience scrambling to get to their seats a measure or so in. I mean, it was lovely to hear the piece beautifully played, but I did think through the logistics of this. Anyway, something to consider.

At some point during the concert, I also starting thinking about the learned etiquette or culture of (classical music) performances. Knowing that applause is reserved for the end of a piece (as opposed to, for example, the end of each movement of a concerto). That a standing ovation seems to be common practice for soloists and at the end of a concert. I don't think I'm knowledgeable and experienced enough to know if they are always warranted, but I'm also not making any statements about the quality of this particular performance. But I do also wonder the typical knowledge base of audience members and would assume that while there would be folks who are knowledgeable/experienced enough to make an appropriate judgment, there are others who don't. I can imagine there are folks that are also follow the crowd's response. And do soloists always come prepared with pieces for encores - is this now a standard expectation and/or part of the culture? Does it come hand in hand with the standing ovation phenomenon? Are audiences trying to get more bang for their buck? 

I started thinking about the accessibility of such performances. Who attends these concerts? What is the demographic? How do parents introduce their children to classical music and/or this etiquette/culture? What efforts to organizations take on this front? (I remember taking a field trip to Roy Thompson Hall - including being encouraged/allowed to play a Bach piece on their organ; I remember getting handouts and activities targeted to kids from a performance; I remember benefiting from TSOUNDCHECK.) I know that my parents were very deliberate with the experiences that I was afforded as a child. And the literal investment that it entailed. I am so grateful.

I started thinking about what I would do to if introducing someone to their 'world'. I started thinking about the benefits of sitting in different areas of the concert hall and what might be more/less visible. (Note: if I go to a concert with a pianist, I have a preferred sitting location.) 

I had forgotten about the amount of stars that exist in Roy Thompson Hall. The expedition to the women's washroom was enlightening (they are plentiful, but a set up that is not necessarily intuitive). 

Anyway, can you tell that I can have an active mind and that, while the performance itself was enjoyable, my mind still wandered to various places? 

Here are the concert details from the TSO website (pasting here because who knows if the actual page will disappear after the season is over). 

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Eva Ollikainen and acclaimed pianist Mao Fujita bring the full range of emotion to Brahms’s stormy Piano Concerto No. 1, followed by Stravinsky’s The Firebird, a spellbinding work that bursts with vivid orchestral colours, transporting listeners to a fantastical realm of daring heroes, enchanted princesses, and otherworldly magic.

Eva Ollikainen, conductor
Mao Fujita, piano

Brahms: Piano Concerto No. 1
Arvo Pärt: Symphony No. 1 “Polyphonic”
Stravinsky: Suite from The Firebird (1919 revision)